a helping hand

Today I did something that I hate doing. I had to tell one of my friends to grow a pair. He has always helped me, and now it's time for me to help him. I hate to see him like this, but you know its hard. I know it sounds weird and all to blog about it, but that is what I do. Something is on my mind I blog. I don't care what people see or don't see. I have nothing to hide, and me caring about my friend. I think its a great thing to get out there. I really want to help him, and I think I can.

The sweetest thing

 So... Yesterday I got the most sweetest letter. It was from a guy friend of mine. I love talking to him. He always knows what to say to make me feel better, and it is sweet that he is writing to me. I'm not talking email, I am talking pen and paper. That is old school. I wish that there was more people like that. It's really nice to think about.

more ramblings

   I am so bored right now. I am trying not to do any work, well any work that isn't needed. Which is sort of hard. I guess this will be my last blog until tomorrow morning sometime. That means anything though. I don't really know if I can write in Lit or not. I may not be able to do anything until a bit past eleven. Which is what ever I guess. It's not really a big deal.

Ramblings and so forth

             So I have 3rd block off. I really don't have anything to do, well I have small things that I should do. I don't want much homework for tomorrow because that would suck. When I am home I don't want to do anything, or do less as I can. I have all this crap I have to carry around. Now I wish I would of asked for a locker. I didn't so I am now screwed. Oh well looks like I am just going to have to deal with that. So yeah I am dealing with that. I will do homework when I feel like it, and that should be soon. Type later I guess. Well it all depends on if I have time in my next class, or if I go on when I am home. I may or may not go on when I am home. I have no idea right now, so it will be later today or early tomorrow.

Senior year yay?

Sitting in Journalism at a different school. So I am a student at another school. I went to it once before. It is strange to be back. I like it though. I have new friends, and some old. I have the best teachers. Senior year could not be better. I just can't wait for this year to be over, but then I am also nervous about it. What is it suppose to become?

boring life of me?

I guess there really isn't anything to talk about, but I will try. I am making Vegan burgers. They are really good lol. The next thing I really need to do is get everything ready for senior pictures. Yeah that sounds fun lol. I have all the pictures taken and edited. As for my mom she wants to get them printed. If you ask me I think it's a bit early, but that is just me. But hey at least mine look better then my brother's lol.

Catch up stuff

This is going to be a catch up blog. So my last one was about my ex and maybe my future. I don't know yet. So July was interesting. June I moved to Hazel. At the beginning of July I had, had sex with someone who shall remain nameless. He was a virgin. That was interesting enough. Then I saw my friend Ellen. As it came closer to the end of July I saw my Step sister Ashley, and I had a fling with one of her friends. As for now I am waiting for my senior year to begin. It is coming close. I don't know what I am going to do till then, but hopefully there will be a lot of Zach. I can't wait to see him next. YAY. lol

My Straight Jacket Feeling

So I thought I would of posted more blogs, but the truth is I didn't. At first there was nothing to write about then there was stuff to write about, covered with nothing and then something again. Right now I need to blog. You know the song by AAR where Tyson Ritter is talking about a straight jacket feeling. That is how I feel. I made out with a past flame you could say. The last time I saw him I was fourteen. And he was like eighteen nineteen so of course nothing happened. I guess it was more of a crush with anything. Well I want him I really do, but I can't let myself give in. I don't want to be someone's late night call. That is just not how I roll. I am a classy girl. My last relationship ended in the pits. Scott ended up telling people that I am whore, and spread a rumor that I cheated on him, when I never did. Now with a hand full of people my name is as good as mud. I guess I'm afraid with Zach because I don't want them to make his life hell. I maybe less then four months from eighteen, but I don't hang out with high schoolers. These are people that Zach is able to see everyday. I mean I want to date him, and I hope that is how he feels about me. That is what I want. I think it would be good for me. A guy like Zach. He makes me smile, and being around him just makes me weak in the knees. I really want to give in to my primal needs, but I don't know if I am able to. Why do people have to be jerks? Why do they have to make everything bad, when everything is finally good? Why Scott? Why do you have to do this to me? Can't you just leave me alone? Haven't you hurt me enough? I guess not.