Treatment of others

It amuses me how people can be complete assholes to others just to make themselves feel better. In all not one is better than anyone. We all have the potential to be good people, and to be bad. I sometimes wonder why people have to treat others like the are nothing. I don't get it. Is because I am a woman? Its like you don't know me, so don't try to put words in my mouth. I guess I am just done caring about those people. It would be the best for us all not to pay mind to them. That is what they want. They are attention seekers. It's like their mothers did not love them enough when they were kids. That may not be the case at all. For any reason we should not treat each other like that. We are all people and deserve to be treated as such.

Keith spoiler, and other deep thoughts.

I was watching this movie called Keith. It made me think. This girl was in love with this guy. It did not start out as that way. He had always had a crush on her. Their AP Chem teacher knew Keith was sick, so he did as Keith wished, and set him up with Natalie. As they hung out more, you could see how she started to like him. She had a lot going for her, but she started going through things. Natalie did not know what was going on with Keith. She threw away her relationship with Raff for Keith. I felt for her when she found out he was going to die. The look on his face when she said she made love to him was just this sad look. She promised to spend the rest of his life with him. Which was not long. This movie made me think about my own feelings about Robin. Yes the boy I have been total head over heels with name is Robin. That would totally suck if anything like that happened to him. I have strong feelings for him. These feelings have not been felt in what feels like ever. Maybe they were never felt before. It shows how you can talk to a person over a month and a half's time, and really have strong feelings for them. I mean it kind of was an online relationship. Just two people chatting back and forth through phone and Facebook. We knew who each other were. After all we did go to high school together. Sometimes I wonder what he would think if I told him about these strong feelings. I think he would more than alright with them. It's hard to imagine back in freshman year. The thought of us would have just been odd. Now its a reality. The real meaning of this blog is to talk about how life is short. We never know when we are going to lose someone. Robin is someone I do not ever want to lose so suddenly, and abruptly. It would be crushing.

Sunday Night

I had an amazing weekend. Sunday was the best day that I have had in a while. It is weird how you can know of someone for three years. That is just it we knew of each other. We had classes together, but that was about it. Forwarding to the present day, we click. Sunday would be a great example. We had been texting for awhile. I felt like I got to know him that way. He was the first person to really confuse me. I did not know how he felt. One day I just had to ask. It was eating me a live. I was afraid that he would not feel the same. That was not the case at all. Now getting back to Sunday... It was wonderful we were sitting in his room kind of cuddling, watching Portlandia. Then he turns to me and asks if he could kiss me. That said something to me just then. I mean most men would just for it. He was considerate. Most would have just gone for it. I know he did not want to make it awkward, but he didn't. He made it better. He made me think more highly of him. I mean in a society like ours there is pressure on both people to be more sexual. When in fact you do not have to be. You can just be comfortable. After he kissed me, he asked me out. I was just in awe. He was just so sweet. I couldn't ask for anyone better.

Time goes on and on

Nervousness is another form of adrenaline. That is what I am dealing with right ow. I am so excited. I normally don't blog twice in one day. I really do not know why. I guess maybe I don't want take too much time. Right now I am just waiting. Time goes on so slowly. It sucks why can't 12:30 come? It is like the time lords are laughing at me. Damn you Matt Smith!!! He is so cruel to me right now... That was a Doctor Who joke... In case anyone did not get it. Yeah it is obvious that I am bored... Well I am really excited and have a lot of energy. I think that one is easy to tell in my righting. It was like that one time when I was talking to an old class mate MeMe. It was when I still went on My Space. I was hyper, and it was hella noticeable. To each there own.

New beginnings

        I have not written in my blog for awhile. I am so excited about today. I have been talking to this really nice guy for  a bit now. He is really chill. I went to high school with him. I never talked to him high school. Different friends I guess. When I was in high school, most of my friends were older. Ok well they still are. Anyway we have a lot in common. It is finally reassuring to find someone that it clicks. He checks out ok. I was talking to a friend of main and they were saying that I am a glass flower I should find someone that can handle a woman that is soft. I will admit I am sensitive. I am also a old fashion kind of person. Not just in the way that I dress, but the way I present myself. I dislike it when people just want casual sex from me. It is not going to happen. Something like that should be with someone that you care about. That is what I personally think for myself. I maybe an Atheist, but I have morals. I have thoughts and beliefs that I hold seriously. I feel like he gets that. He is chill with who I am as a person.