I know I don't write in her too often. I just outed myself. I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I had some feelings to get off my chest now I play the waiting game. It is really weird to think about. You don't want people to judge you too harshly, but if they care about you they won't. Its something to think about. I often think about it. It suck trying to figure out who actually cares and who doesn't. Is that what we have to wait for? Life is never easy. I have always understood that. I understand a lot about life. I am young as well. I had to grow up fast when I was a kid. I didn't have much of a childhood. Now I am here. Sometimes I wonder why. Other times it is easy not to think about.
Confessions are always hard. I had just done one. I feel better right now. I just don't know if that is going to crash and burn. I thought it was a good idea at the time? Do I think so now? Only time will tell. I don't think this person is going to hurt me by any means, but at the same time I could have really weirded them out. I mean I weirded myself out as well. I do that one a daily bases. I see this person as someone the I can talk to about anything. Then there was something that came up that just hurt me. I didn't know why. Now I do. Well I guess I always knew. At first I guess I never wanted it to be that. I had to make myself realize this. After I did. I figured it was best to be honest. Hopefully nothing is ruined by it.
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